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What About Henry and Zhou Mi pt.4

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I looked at my phone and the first thing that I noticed was the time. Three hours have already gone by. Eunhyuk messaged me like he said he was going to. The message read, "Do you want to come and visit me now? =)"

I yawned and replied back, "Ok. I will be there in a bit." I got up again and went to get ready to leave. Before I left, I put some food in Areu's food bowl, trusting that she would eat her dinner this time. She sniffed it and walked away. "Be a good girl while I'm gone." I said to her.

She gave me the "Don't do anything I wouldn't do" kind of face. I smiled and walked out the door.  My car was cold again so I left it running for about ten minutes and then I drove down to see Eunhyuk.

I walked up to the door and knocked twice. I heard the sound of the locks being unlocked and then Eunhyuk opened the door. He looked like he was happy to see me just as he always did. "Come on in." He greeted, and I walked inside. While I looked around he said, "I'll take your coat for you." I gave him my coat and he put it on the coat rack.
"Thanks." I said, and he smiled again.

"Would you like to sit down?" He asked. I looked at the couch and it didn't seem too pleasant, so I sat on a stool in the kitchen. "I baked some cookies this morning. Would you like to try one?" Before I could respond, he took out a plate of cookies from the pantry and handed one to me. They were each wrapped in plastic with pink bows tied at the top.

"Oh, thank you," I said as I inspected the wrapped cookie. "That's a nifty little idea to wrap the cookies."

"It was Hyoyeon's idea," he noted, "She even gave me the recipe. Did I mention to you that she was an amazing cook?"

My heart sank and I put the cookie in my purse. "No, I guess not."

"Are you feeling okay today, Jojo?" He asked me as he walked over and sat down next to me.

I sighed. "Yes, I'm fine. It's just that there's been some stuff going on lately."

He had a look of confusion on his face. "What do you mean?"

"It's hard to say." I replied.

"If it's about Hankyung leaving, don't worry about it. I'm actually helping to keep the sub-group together. We've already gotten things planned out, and Sungmin is helping too-"

"Oh," I said, "Well that's good news for Zhou Mi and Henry then isn't it?"

"It sure is. If that's what you wanted to talk about, then it wasn't worth the trouble coming all the way over here." He smirked.

"Thanks, but it wasn't about that actually." I looked at him for a brief second, and then back down at my purse on my lap. "I wanted to see you. I have something to get off of my chest." He looked at me with concern, as if I was going to tell him something tragic. "This whole thing that's been going on with you and Hyoyeon has gotten me thinking about how things used to be before you two were together. Don't get me wrong now, I'm happy for you, it's just that I.." I stopped to take a breath, "I don't know. I guess I'm trying to say that I was really ignorant in the past, and now I miss you."

"I honestly don't understand what you're saying to me." He said, confused as to what my point of the conversation was.

"Look, I just want to say that I'm sorry for always pushing you away and not showing you any respect."

I glanced at him again, and he looked like he was thinking about something, but he probably wasn't. "I don't know why you're sorry about that, but I forgive you."

"Well why wouldn't I be? I treated you like crap."

"I never felt like you treated me badly in any sort of way. Even if you did and I didn't realize it, I probably deserved it. I know how much it bugged you when I used to follow you around all the time, but that's only because I thought you were great to be around. Nobody ever accepted me the way you did, or was ever even nice to me like you were, even if you were a little creeped out. I couldn't help the fact that you thought I was weird, but at least you accepted me that way. Maybe that's why I liked you so much." He looked directly at me and smiled, but the way he was smiling was different than all the other times he's smiled at me. He looked like he was sincere and it broke my heart because I felt like I had lost something I didn't know I had. I didn't really know what to say, and he continued with one last statement, "You really don't have to worry about any of that now though, because I have Hyoyeon now, and I couldn't be happier. And I have you to thank for that. I'm glad we're still friends."

That was when I nearly felt like getting up and running away, but I couldn't. Somehow, I felt like my legs were frozen and I couldn't move. "No! It isn't supposed to be this way!" I thought. It seemed like my walls were closing in on me and I couldn't escape it. Why did I feel this way? I felt guilty, angry, and upset all at the same time. It was so terrible that I was just about to cry. I took the cookie out of my purse and stared at it. My heart was beating really fast and I felt like I was suffocating. My eyes were starting to water.

"What's wrong?" Eunhyuk asked me. He looked like he was starting to realize my feelings, but the chances of that were slim to none.

I quickly got up and put the cookie on the stool I was sitting at. "I have to go," was all I could say before I ran out the door. I ran down the hallway and to my car in the parking lot with streams of tears running down my face. Visiting Eunhyuk didn't exactly go the way I planned, and I hated it. Things went from bad to worse, but maybe it was all just in my head. After all, there was still hope yet. I had to get past all of the bad things I was feeling at that point in time and make my way to the concert hall. I had to go back and see them, Super Junior M.
Well this can't be good.
Jojo really screwed things up didn't she?
I really have to be honest here, I have mixed emotions for Eunhyuk. He always frightened me, but somehow I feel bad that I think about him like that. I dunno.... It's weird. I'm starting to work at it.
Enjoy~!

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Phoenixofdarkness62's avatar
It seems like Jojo really missed out on Eunhyuk. :'( He seems like he'd be the sweetest guy too. Anyway, love the progress can't wait for more as always. :)